Good morning,
Well I did it. I signed up for Match.com. So far I have been winked at from men from FL, GA, KY, TX, IL, NY, and OH. I can not and will not date someone that far away. I will not get discourage but a guy telling me he will relocate and doesn't even know me. I am not stupid and won't fall for that line again. I have blocked some profiles. I may not find anyone but will give it this one more time. I won't settle for second best. I deserve the best and if he is out there he will find me and if not I am learning to be happy with just me. I am a good person and will treat him with love and respect but I expect the same back. It has to be 50-50. I am not looking for someone to pay my bills. I am capable of that and I will not pay his bills either. I will not let them know where I work. For some reason some guys think that I make a lot of money or have access to the best doctors cause of where I work. They just think I do accounting and I will not let them know where I work unless I think it is for real. I am going to continue to hold my head up high. I may fall sometimes and get down and feel like what's the use but when I get like that, I look at my kids pictures and realize how truly blessed I am. They are all healthy and make me proud of what they have accomplished and what they will accomplished in their lives. Not many families can say that all of their kids have gone to college. I will have 2 teachers and 2 engineers once Amanda and Kevin finish. Amanda is on the last leg. She will student teach this fall and finish her classes for her masters. Did I mention how proud I am of each of my children. They are the light of my LIFE and when one is hurting or sad so am I. I miss having Heather close by. She has been my rock and gave me the courage to move on with my LIFE. I miss having all my kids close by but Life moves on. I don't like parents who have their favorites and they make it obvious. If anyone thinks I favor any of my kids then they don't know me very well. I may at one time talk about one more then another but that is because they are doing something special at the time. I talk about all my kids all the time. I work with 2 ladies that have not had children. I can tell they would have been good mothers but it wasn't in the cards for them but they are happy with their lives. I couldn't imagine not having kids.
God bless you and have a great day!
Linda
Quote of the day "A man should look for what is, and not for what he thinks should be." Albert Einstein
I picked lady gaga cause I love her songs and would love to meet her if I had a pick of someone to meet.
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Monday, June 13, 2011
Day 17 13 Jun 11
Good afternoon,
The trip to Philadelphia was a success. Got Kevin all moved in. The trip up and back with his dad was good. It felt good to be able to ride up and back with him and not feel like I wanted to be anywhere but there. This am I was busy posting pics and spending sometime with one of my sisters and her family before she left for NC. The next 2 weeks it will just be me and Oreo and Cindy Lou. I am looking forward to some time to myself. Well that is all I have for today.
Peace today and always!
Linda
Quote of the day "A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?" Albert Einstein
The trip to Philadelphia was a success. Got Kevin all moved in. The trip up and back with his dad was good. It felt good to be able to ride up and back with him and not feel like I wanted to be anywhere but there. This am I was busy posting pics and spending sometime with one of my sisters and her family before she left for NC. The next 2 weeks it will just be me and Oreo and Cindy Lou. I am looking forward to some time to myself. Well that is all I have for today.
Peace today and always!
Linda
Quote of the day "A question that sometimes drives me hazy: am I or are the others crazy?" Albert Einstein
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Day 16 12 Jun 11
Good morning,
I am looking forward to the trip to Philadelphia today with Kevin, his girlfriend Katie and his dad. I will miss him but what an awesome opportunity he has. The next 2 weeks will be good for me cause my dad will be at my brother's house in Ohio and Kevin will be in Phillie and I will have the house to myself. I need to look at this has a time to find me and get some things done around here. I deserve to smile and be happy. Leona Lewis is playing "Better In time." Everyone deserves to smile and be happy. Only me can make me happy and I thought I had to have man in my life to be complete but I know I don't. I need to realize it is better to be alone then to be with someone who only wants you part of the time. I need time and attention and if someone out there is made to be with me then God will have to show me the way. I realize I can't rush it. I realize I also fall in love easy but have learned that I need to just take time and enjoy life. The fact that I can now ride places with my exhusband and not feel like running away when he is near is great progress for me. He is a good person, a great father and someone I know I can trust and depend on to be there for me if needed. No one can have to many friends but how many of them can you really depend on to be there if needed. Facebook has been good for me to find past friends and make new friends. I am going to keep my head held high and be the best that I can be and realize that even though I have my share of mistakes that so has everyone out there. No one is perfect and everyone has drama in their life. If someone can claim that they have led a perfect life with no regrets or mistakes then send them my way so I can bow down to them. I just had a nice conversation with my daughter Heather and she told me I will be a great catch and I think I may need to do a paid dating site and to not rush it.
Blessings,
Linda
Funny Quote of the day "A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself." Josh Billings
I am looking forward to the trip to Philadelphia today with Kevin, his girlfriend Katie and his dad. I will miss him but what an awesome opportunity he has. The next 2 weeks will be good for me cause my dad will be at my brother's house in Ohio and Kevin will be in Phillie and I will have the house to myself. I need to look at this has a time to find me and get some things done around here. I deserve to smile and be happy. Leona Lewis is playing "Better In time." Everyone deserves to smile and be happy. Only me can make me happy and I thought I had to have man in my life to be complete but I know I don't. I need to realize it is better to be alone then to be with someone who only wants you part of the time. I need time and attention and if someone out there is made to be with me then God will have to show me the way. I realize I can't rush it. I realize I also fall in love easy but have learned that I need to just take time and enjoy life. The fact that I can now ride places with my exhusband and not feel like running away when he is near is great progress for me. He is a good person, a great father and someone I know I can trust and depend on to be there for me if needed. No one can have to many friends but how many of them can you really depend on to be there if needed. Facebook has been good for me to find past friends and make new friends. I am going to keep my head held high and be the best that I can be and realize that even though I have my share of mistakes that so has everyone out there. No one is perfect and everyone has drama in their life. If someone can claim that they have led a perfect life with no regrets or mistakes then send them my way so I can bow down to them. I just had a nice conversation with my daughter Heather and she told me I will be a great catch and I think I may need to do a paid dating site and to not rush it.
Blessings,
Linda
Funny Quote of the day "A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than you love yourself." Josh Billings
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Day 15 - 11 Jun 11
Good morning,
Going to have a good day with family. I have lots to do so I am going to make short and sweet. I need to keep searching for happiness. I need to forgive and move on. I am really trying but I don't think they realize how much that they hurt me. I know I was the one to allow it to happen and have no one but myself to blame for it. I hope others out there don't fall like I have but I have a feeling there are more out there like me. I may add later today but right now I am going to help my daughter prepare food for today.
V/R,
Linda
Video - This song is upbeat and happy and makes me want to dance. I would like to find a man that wants to take me dancing. Doesn't have to be every week but just once in a while. It is hard to find one that wants to do that.
Quote of the day "You cannot do only one thing." Garrett Hardin
Going to have a good day with family. I have lots to do so I am going to make short and sweet. I need to keep searching for happiness. I need to forgive and move on. I am really trying but I don't think they realize how much that they hurt me. I know I was the one to allow it to happen and have no one but myself to blame for it. I hope others out there don't fall like I have but I have a feeling there are more out there like me. I may add later today but right now I am going to help my daughter prepare food for today.
V/R,
Linda
Video - This song is upbeat and happy and makes me want to dance. I would like to find a man that wants to take me dancing. Doesn't have to be every week but just once in a while. It is hard to find one that wants to do that.
Quote of the day "You cannot do only one thing." Garrett Hardin
Friday, June 10, 2011
Day 14 - 10 Jun 11
Good morning,
Day off and lots to do to get ready for tomorrow but I am glad to be busy. It helps me not to be lonely. My biggest problem is I don't know how to relax. I feel that I am being lazy if I decide to sleep in or not clean the house. I decided I am burned out on housework. I found a solution to this. I hired my youngest daughter Amanda to clean for my dad and I. She is someone I can trust and depend on. She needs some extra money to help her out this summer. She works for the Warren Co Park and Recs but due to her summer college schedule they aren't giving her very many hours. It is a win win for both of us. I hope it doesn't sound bad that I don't like to clean. I think the biggest problem I have is that it isn't necessarily that I don't like to clean I think it is because it isn't my house. That may sound bad and I am sorry. I just never thought I would end back her at my parents house once I moved out and got married in 1980. I am grateful that they took my 2 youngest and me in 3 years ago. I see alot of family members having to live together to make ends meet. I think it is great. I don't like when I want to run away from here. My parents have been good to me and I am thankful that I had them to fall back on. When Henry and I got married we both thought it was forver. Nothing last forever and we both made our share of mistakes. Who hasn't. Name one person who has not done something that later regreted I will bow down to them.
One thing I know is that I am so glad that Henry's health is better. No we can never get back together. We are good friends and that is all I would ever want. I know me. If we would get back together I would try to mother him again. I don't want that. I want a relationship that I can be a girlfriend and maybe eventually a wife but I don't want to be a mother.
Trust is something I am working on. I have had my kindness taken advantage off. I have learned the hard way and now I have walls built up around me and feel that everyone is out to take advantage of me. I give to charities but will not give to a man again. I do believe in 50-50 but when you find yourself paying more then half then that is when it is time to get out. People tell me that there is someone out there for me. It is hard to hear this from people that have love in their life. I don't mind hearing it from people like me that are single. I know people mean well but they aren't helping me when they do this. I don't like being single but I will hold my head up. Do the best that I can do everyday that I wake up. Realize that life isn't always fair and it is going to take someone special to capture my heart. I have learned the lines of guys that are only after making themselves happy. No bites yet on Plenty of Fish. I just wish i knew what my competition is. I may have to redo my profile. I will work on that but going to just enjoy me and learn to love me. I really don't want to do a paid dating site but may do again but only after I know that Kevin and Amanda's financial aid this year is covered.
Quote of the day "Change your thoughts and you change your world." -- Norman Vincent Peale
John Mayer "Waiting on the World to Change" this was my first ringtone. I miss having it.
Have a great day.
Linda
Day off and lots to do to get ready for tomorrow but I am glad to be busy. It helps me not to be lonely. My biggest problem is I don't know how to relax. I feel that I am being lazy if I decide to sleep in or not clean the house. I decided I am burned out on housework. I found a solution to this. I hired my youngest daughter Amanda to clean for my dad and I. She is someone I can trust and depend on. She needs some extra money to help her out this summer. She works for the Warren Co Park and Recs but due to her summer college schedule they aren't giving her very many hours. It is a win win for both of us. I hope it doesn't sound bad that I don't like to clean. I think the biggest problem I have is that it isn't necessarily that I don't like to clean I think it is because it isn't my house. That may sound bad and I am sorry. I just never thought I would end back her at my parents house once I moved out and got married in 1980. I am grateful that they took my 2 youngest and me in 3 years ago. I see alot of family members having to live together to make ends meet. I think it is great. I don't like when I want to run away from here. My parents have been good to me and I am thankful that I had them to fall back on. When Henry and I got married we both thought it was forver. Nothing last forever and we both made our share of mistakes. Who hasn't. Name one person who has not done something that later regreted I will bow down to them.
One thing I know is that I am so glad that Henry's health is better. No we can never get back together. We are good friends and that is all I would ever want. I know me. If we would get back together I would try to mother him again. I don't want that. I want a relationship that I can be a girlfriend and maybe eventually a wife but I don't want to be a mother.
Trust is something I am working on. I have had my kindness taken advantage off. I have learned the hard way and now I have walls built up around me and feel that everyone is out to take advantage of me. I give to charities but will not give to a man again. I do believe in 50-50 but when you find yourself paying more then half then that is when it is time to get out. People tell me that there is someone out there for me. It is hard to hear this from people that have love in their life. I don't mind hearing it from people like me that are single. I know people mean well but they aren't helping me when they do this. I don't like being single but I will hold my head up. Do the best that I can do everyday that I wake up. Realize that life isn't always fair and it is going to take someone special to capture my heart. I have learned the lines of guys that are only after making themselves happy. No bites yet on Plenty of Fish. I just wish i knew what my competition is. I may have to redo my profile. I will work on that but going to just enjoy me and learn to love me. I really don't want to do a paid dating site but may do again but only after I know that Kevin and Amanda's financial aid this year is covered.
Quote of the day "Change your thoughts and you change your world." -- Norman Vincent Peale
John Mayer "Waiting on the World to Change" this was my first ringtone. I miss having it.
Have a great day.
Linda
Thursday, June 9, 2011
Day 13 - 09 Jun 11
Good morning,
I overslept. I have a feelin' it is going to be one of those days but I am going to work on making it a good day. I just need to think of happy thoughts and laugh & smile when I just feel like crying. I know that some people have more cash, are prettier, younger, have a big house and fancy car and a man/woman to love them and I need to realize that just because I don't doesn't mean I am a loser. I am someone. I am a good person, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend to all, and hard worker. I am Miss Independent. Maybe the love bug will find me one day but for now I need to learn that being single isn't a disease. Sometimes it is a cure. I want to be in a relationship that I feel wanted and needed and vice versus. I can't make him feel the same way unless that is what he wants. Well have a good day. Thank you for reading.
Linda
Quote of the day: "Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first." Mark Twain
I overslept. I have a feelin' it is going to be one of those days but I am going to work on making it a good day. I just need to think of happy thoughts and laugh & smile when I just feel like crying. I know that some people have more cash, are prettier, younger, have a big house and fancy car and a man/woman to love them and I need to realize that just because I don't doesn't mean I am a loser. I am someone. I am a good person, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, friend to all, and hard worker. I am Miss Independent. Maybe the love bug will find me one day but for now I need to learn that being single isn't a disease. Sometimes it is a cure. I want to be in a relationship that I feel wanted and needed and vice versus. I can't make him feel the same way unless that is what he wants. Well have a good day. Thank you for reading.
Linda
Quote of the day: "Don't go around saying the world owes you a living. The world owes you nothing. It was here first." Mark Twain
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Day 12 08 Jun 11
Good morning,
I am finding that being a single parent is lonely. My kids are the best and have brought me lots of joy and I couldn't be more proud but they now have their own lives. I don't know how to be anything but a mom and hard worker. I guess when I get in a relationship I want to become a mother to the person and that is why I should probably just stay single the rest of my life. I have a soft heart which is easily taken advantage of. If love finds me the man has to be financially stable. Not rich because I don't expect diamonds, trips or big house. I don't think I would be happy with a man making a lot of money. I don't know I guess I just want someone I can trust, depend on and wants to cuddle and hold hands. I just want to find someone that likes the simple pleasures in life. Like going to wine festivals, movies every now and then, take walks, drives in the country, spend time with family members. Someone that is going to make me feel like the only girl in the world. I need attention and will give attention back. I will not settle for someone that doesn't want to be scene with me all the time. (I know scene is suppose to be seen). I have been trying to figure out something for 2 years and going crazy trying to figure it out. Kevin, my youngest son, is taking a bow in his yearbook. You know the senior superlatives. Well he wasn't in drama and the girl was big into drama. Also the night of the awards, he got a scholarship from VSB and the gentleman said that Kevin was going to change the world. He changed my world cause he made my family complete, 2 boys and 2 girls. You see Kevin was a surprise. I was almost 5 months pregnant before I realized my belly was growing. Amanda was still a baby herself and we had just moved into a new house and I had just started with the preschool. I thought I was just tired cause of all of this. When they told me I was having a little boy I was so excited. I don't want Kevin to know this cause he is loved just as much as the rest even though he wasn't planned. What is ironic is that I wasn't planned either. Kevin and I are the youngest of the family. My mom wanted a boy got another girl. She cried at first but back then the loaded them up on meds to deliver so I never held it against my mom. I know she loved me. I do have lots to be thankful for. I know I don't act like it sometimes. I just sometimes feel like in the Katy Perry song Firework "buried 6 foot deep and no one hears a thing." Another thing I do is worry about everything and everyone. I can't help it. It is in my DNA. I worry that Kevin won't get the financial aid he needs. I guess another loan won't break me but I worry that they will say no you already have loans. I guess if I get turned down I could go to Henry's millionaire brother. He may not like me but he shouldn't turn his back on his nephew. He would rather see me and Henry live on the streets. I wouldn't expect him to hand Kevin the money without him paying the loan back but he is so stingy with his money. I would live on the streets before I would take a penny from him.
Edwin McCain I will be is playing. I will post it. Now U2 beautiful day. It is my ring tone. My daughter Heather gave me the idea. I am going to try to have a beautiful day and when I get down I will remember all the good things in my life and remember that I am a survivor and don't want to go back to that dark spot. I will not let the devil take me down. He doesn't want me happy and tried to destroy me more then once. I will be the winner and come out on top. Peace to all.
Linda
Quote of the day "Life is like a ten-speed bike. Most of us have gears we never use." -- Charles Schultz
I am finding that being a single parent is lonely. My kids are the best and have brought me lots of joy and I couldn't be more proud but they now have their own lives. I don't know how to be anything but a mom and hard worker. I guess when I get in a relationship I want to become a mother to the person and that is why I should probably just stay single the rest of my life. I have a soft heart which is easily taken advantage of. If love finds me the man has to be financially stable. Not rich because I don't expect diamonds, trips or big house. I don't think I would be happy with a man making a lot of money. I don't know I guess I just want someone I can trust, depend on and wants to cuddle and hold hands. I just want to find someone that likes the simple pleasures in life. Like going to wine festivals, movies every now and then, take walks, drives in the country, spend time with family members. Someone that is going to make me feel like the only girl in the world. I need attention and will give attention back. I will not settle for someone that doesn't want to be scene with me all the time. (I know scene is suppose to be seen). I have been trying to figure out something for 2 years and going crazy trying to figure it out. Kevin, my youngest son, is taking a bow in his yearbook. You know the senior superlatives. Well he wasn't in drama and the girl was big into drama. Also the night of the awards, he got a scholarship from VSB and the gentleman said that Kevin was going to change the world. He changed my world cause he made my family complete, 2 boys and 2 girls. You see Kevin was a surprise. I was almost 5 months pregnant before I realized my belly was growing. Amanda was still a baby herself and we had just moved into a new house and I had just started with the preschool. I thought I was just tired cause of all of this. When they told me I was having a little boy I was so excited. I don't want Kevin to know this cause he is loved just as much as the rest even though he wasn't planned. What is ironic is that I wasn't planned either. Kevin and I are the youngest of the family. My mom wanted a boy got another girl. She cried at first but back then the loaded them up on meds to deliver so I never held it against my mom. I know she loved me. I do have lots to be thankful for. I know I don't act like it sometimes. I just sometimes feel like in the Katy Perry song Firework "buried 6 foot deep and no one hears a thing." Another thing I do is worry about everything and everyone. I can't help it. It is in my DNA. I worry that Kevin won't get the financial aid he needs. I guess another loan won't break me but I worry that they will say no you already have loans. I guess if I get turned down I could go to Henry's millionaire brother. He may not like me but he shouldn't turn his back on his nephew. He would rather see me and Henry live on the streets. I wouldn't expect him to hand Kevin the money without him paying the loan back but he is so stingy with his money. I would live on the streets before I would take a penny from him.
Edwin McCain I will be is playing. I will post it. Now U2 beautiful day. It is my ring tone. My daughter Heather gave me the idea. I am going to try to have a beautiful day and when I get down I will remember all the good things in my life and remember that I am a survivor and don't want to go back to that dark spot. I will not let the devil take me down. He doesn't want me happy and tried to destroy me more then once. I will be the winner and come out on top. Peace to all.
Linda
Quote of the day "Life is like a ten-speed bike. Most of us have gears we never use." -- Charles Schultz
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