Day 3 - 31 May 11

Good morning,
Today is a day that 2 years ago (the day not the date) was not a good day for me. I went into my job at NO VA and (over the 3 day weekend) I came into work Tuesday and they had changed everything about how the company worked.  All that they change directly affected me and no one even gave me a heads up.  No one told me when I left Friday that I had to work on Monday.  The last I had heard was that we had Monday off.  I think they did it on purpose. To top it off my boss had moved to Germany with her husband and 2 children and no one told me before she left who my boss would be.  I guess I should tell you that it is a family run business. They are Hispanic and I have no problem at all with that.  They had a lot of great workers and they were all legal.  I made sure if it cause that was one of my many jobs there.  They brought in another family member which I had no problem with but she had it in for me and the owner of the company turned against me too.  Let's just say I lost it and had to take a temporary leave of absence to go to a safe place for 10 days.  I almost missed my youngest sons graduation from HS and I am trying to forgive myself for this cause he did graduate with honors and is at UVA majoring in engineering.  I did make it to it but was so tired with all the meds I was taking (I have since came off of most of them cause I couldn't function at work and handle the long drive very well).  I know that my kids are all doing great and I need to know that even the best fall down sometimes but I got back up.  OMG look at the time.  I have to get ready for work.  I am blessed to be able to say that.


More to follow each day and I hope I don't put you to sleep but if I do maybe I need to read before I go to bed cause sleep doesn't come easy for me.


Much love and peace and smile. Yes even when I feel like I want to cry I will try to keep smiling.  Cause I can and I want you to smile cause I know you can.


Linda

Day 2 30 May 11

Good morning and Happy Memorial Day! I am truly blessed because I have a lot to be thankful for.  I know sometimes I get down and feel like all I do is work but I am blessed that I am able to work and have a job that even a year and half later still feels like a dream come true. 

I know that I am the one that has to make Linda happy.  I also know that I can do it on my own.  I still would like to find love but I need to learn to love myself first.  I am working on this.  It sometimes hard and with tv shows like Real Housewives it makes it hard for me.  There is nothing real abou them and they don't know what it is like to have to work for a living.  They have everything handed to them and still have to act like spoiled rotten bitches.  Excuse my language but this is my blog so I guess that makes it OK. 

I am going to try to post each day.  This is good therapy and a safe place.  Also a place that if you read and follow you need to be nonjudmental.

Peace be with you,
Linda

Day one 29 May 2011

This is my first blog and don't know how this will go but it is for single parents that are trying to start over.  I have 4 grown children.  They are the light of my LIFE but now that they are grown it is time for me to have my time but finding it hard to do. I got married right out of HS and have worked and raised my kids so being single is hard sometimes

I am currently trying Plenty of Fish again for the 3rd time. Three times a charm they say.  We will see.  I am trying hard to be happy with my life but sometimes I get discourage because I was married for almost 30 years and feel like a puzzle with a missing piece not having a man in my life. 

If anyone has any thoughts on this please share. 

Thank you for reading and have a blessed day.